Relationships
Oh Relationships... they are really a thing for themselves. I am not sure how the Process of Relationships are supposed to work. I have horrible experiences with Relationships and almost think I am not even capable of being in a Relationship. Is there such thing as not being capable to have a Relationship? I seem to always mess everything up for myself or start to second Guess Myself. Everybody always says follow your Heart and you will do the right thing. Yeah HA ... I can't follow my heart when I can't understand it. I don't know what its doing and im pretty sure I don't speak the same language as my heart. Haha
Ive been in many Relationships and also been stuck in bad Relationships. I seem to always tend to people that want to hurt me and don't want to see me happy. Do I attract People that just want to hurt me ? Is it because of the way I see myself or WHY ? I Just don't understand why. A lot of People always say the Man choses you and thats how its supposed to work. Stop searching and live your life and then you will be found. I don't know if every woman that tells me that really believes that or thinks that. Or if it maybe is just a Myth that people say because they want to feel better about their Relationship? I don't know. But i caught myself saying that as well and I only said it because others always say that. So that makes me think ... is that also not the Solution. To Just wait around and live life and one day I will be found by Prince Charming ??
Anywho ... Ive been in an abusive relationship for three years. I was emotionally drained and I kept going in the Relationship. I was head over heals in Love with this Guy and he played with my Emotions because he knew he could. I didn't see that at that moment. I thought oh Poor Guy he has issues he needs me to help him etc etc ... Yeah turns out that i needed help after that one. I was emotionally drained and incapable of having further Relationships. I know everybody has bad experiences in Relationships. I know a lot of People. If I think about it If 60% of the People had bad experience than nobody will every be capable of having a healthy relationship. We are all broken :D :D
I don't know but there is a lot going through my head about this Topic. And don't get me started on TINDER. 😓
Ive been in many Relationships and also been stuck in bad Relationships. I seem to always tend to people that want to hurt me and don't want to see me happy. Do I attract People that just want to hurt me ? Is it because of the way I see myself or WHY ? I Just don't understand why. A lot of People always say the Man choses you and thats how its supposed to work. Stop searching and live your life and then you will be found. I don't know if every woman that tells me that really believes that or thinks that. Or if it maybe is just a Myth that people say because they want to feel better about their Relationship? I don't know. But i caught myself saying that as well and I only said it because others always say that. So that makes me think ... is that also not the Solution. To Just wait around and live life and one day I will be found by Prince Charming ??
Anywho ... Ive been in an abusive relationship for three years. I was emotionally drained and I kept going in the Relationship. I was head over heals in Love with this Guy and he played with my Emotions because he knew he could. I didn't see that at that moment. I thought oh Poor Guy he has issues he needs me to help him etc etc ... Yeah turns out that i needed help after that one. I was emotionally drained and incapable of having further Relationships. I know everybody has bad experiences in Relationships. I know a lot of People. If I think about it If 60% of the People had bad experience than nobody will every be capable of having a healthy relationship. We are all broken :D :D
I don't know but there is a lot going through my head about this Topic. And don't get me started on TINDER. 😓
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