Judge Me.

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Judge Me 27.04.2019


My whole life people judged me. Looking back and looking at old letters from friends or boyfriends makes me think… did their critic change me? Did it make me to the person I am today ? Its crazy how people see you and how you see yourself.

The first thing people used to tell me: That I don’t know who I am. 

Ehm okay I am not sure how an outsider can judge if I know who I am or not. What does it even mean to know `who i am`? I am the only person that knows what i experienced in life and feel my feelings. How can an outsider judge anything? Nobody can see what is going on in my brain. I am doing fine and life has its ups and downs. You go with the swings and try to get through… Well i have news for you. I know who i am :)

Another thing a lot of people said to me throughout my life: I can not accurately estimate people. Who is a real friend and who isn’t. 

Well… you know what I have to say to that bullshit… I am the type of person who gives everybody a chance. I don’t judge. I don’t listen to other peoples opinions and experiences. I make my own. I give my all and do everything for a person. If that other person doesn’t want anything to do with me or be mean to me, so be it. I don’t care. I am a hard enough bitch to cope. I don’t need everybody to like me or be nice or want the best for me. All I know is i want to be the best person that I can be. That is the most important to me. Walk all over me as much as you want… nobody can break me ;)

Third point: I carry my baggage with me. 

Yes I do carry my baggage with me. This does not mean that I am not over it. I have worked all the negative feelings out and i don’t live in the past. I take my baggage with me, because they are experiences. Good experiences I have made that I would not like to forget. I have learned out of ALL my mistakes. I will never forget and I have learned. I take the baggage with me everywhere and I am fine with that. I can cope with it. If you can not  cope with your baggage and need to throw it away and not use what you have learned from it. Not my problem.  But don’t judge me for taking it everywhere. I got my 10 Louis Vuitton Bags with me everywhere :D Filled with maaaany Chanel Experiences

Fourth Point: Ha this is actually the best I have ever heard. I laugh everything off. :D 

Amen to laughing. Why should I NOT laugh everything off ? I am aware of every situation and if i decide to laugh instead of crying… let me be. I have my moments where I decide I need or want to cry. Don't worry. 

I just think we all need to stop judging other people and trying to be a therapist, when we clearly all have no idea what we are doing. Don't judge anybody except yourself.

The Critic I have received has probably influenced me in some type of way. So Critic is fine and good but it has to be in a non-judgy type of a way. We all are aware of our own mistakes and don't always need it blasted on a freakin TV. :D 

Til next time

Xoxo
Amyknowsbest



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