Amy knows best or does she ?

Oh Relationships... they are really a thing for themselves. I am not sure how the Process of Relationships are supposed to work. I have horrible experiences with Relationships and almost think I am not even capable of being in a Relationship. Is there such thing as not being capable to have a Relationship? I seem to always mess everything up for myself or start to second Guess Myself. Everybody always says follow your Heart and you will do the right thing. Yeah HA ... I can't follow my heart when I can't understand it. I don't know what its doing and im pretty sure I don't speak the same language as my heart. Haha Ive been in many Relationships and also been stuck in bad Relationships. I seem to always tend to people that want to hurt me and don't want to see me happy. Do I attract People that just want to hurt me ? Is it because of the way I see myself or WHY ? I Just don't understand why. A lot of People always say the Man choses you and thats how its suppos...

Hey Guys, I was out with my girls last night and we met up at Oscars Apropos. Its on the Mittelstrasse in Cologne, Germany. I must say ... I looked at the prices for Wine and Food. They are really high. I am not sure what is so great about the food either. I ordered a Spanish Soup, which my Luck was known for a cold Soup. Too bad i didn't know what before I ordered :D Yeah so my cold Soup didn't taste special or GRAND and it wasn't a big bowl of soup either. It was an average size bowl of Soup. The price for this average bowl Soup was insane. The Location is very nice and relaxing but I did not feel as comfortable there, as i thought i would. I guess I am not a High Class Girl :D The Entrance is very nice and pink. I loved that. Its actually a nice place to shoot a few photos ! My Friend told me that the Breakfast quit good is. So maybe next time ill be going for Breakfast there. Hopefully a piece of Bread won't cost me 20 Euro. This was my Soup that I ord...

Hey Guys, now on a more positive note. Ive decided to dye my hair :) I bought this color .. brown and just wanted to try it out. Does anybody have experience with hair colors? Ive never tried Loreal Hair Coloring but we will see the Results soon. I had really light hair from back then when I was blond :D Yes I was blond and it actually looked good. But i want to go from the light hair to a bit darker. It might look a bit healthier and natural then. Hopefully. I thought I needed two packs but one was enough :) Can not wait for the results. I am going to continue my Fall Apartment Cleaning. Always a good Idea to clean out your life and just start fresh and positive. And that might include changing up your Hair Color.  Distance yourself from everything that stands in your way.  Laters xoxo Amyknowsbest

So it all started being good in my life. I finally got used to living in Germany and got used to the language and people. It was all new to me but it was starting to feel like my home. Then one evening on my way home i was attacked in the dark. I can't explain exactly what happened but I was scared for my life. All I did was scream for a minute until I knew nobody was going to help me. So I stopped screaming and hoped that the attack would be over soon. I learned from that day that Germany is also not safe. I grew up in America and I have experienced Snipers, Hurricanes and Harrassments. I didn't think there could be anything worse than that. I was wrong. It can always get worse. I was alone, no Family and no real friends to call for help. I continued to go home after the attack and never talked about it again until 1 year ago. Life isn't always easy and beautiful but you have to find the strength to keep going. Keep looking forward and being positive. There will alwa...

Hey, so I spent my afternoon in the Great Berry. It was great. I had the Berry Me Smoothie and I can only recommend it for Sweet Tooths. I also had an immunity shot, which burned my entire mouth and throat, but I feel much healthier now. The Immunity shot has Ginger and Lemon in it. I can only recommend The Great Berry. Later that day... My Boyfriend showed me a new scale that he bought. I am very surprised what the scale can do. I seem to have 20% Fat content. I am not sure if that is good or bad. What is the normal Fat content of a woman? For me it sounds a lot but maybe its normal. Even though I am feeling a bit fat right now, I automatically ordered a Pizza by Dominos :D :D very smart So I started the Afternoon Healthy and I am ending the Day with a Salami Pizza from Dominos. I miss the American food.. and I can not wait to finally eat a piece. Even though the scale is telling me im fat. But hey it could have been worse .. it could have yelled at me  HEY YOUR 100% FAT ...

Hey Guys ! ,  I am getting ready to get out of bed. I have been sick for the past 5 days and have not left my bed. I think it is about time to get some fresh air and some movement. That always help to recover. I wanted to go meet up with my Boyfriend to Great Berry but We have decided to go to Cafe Buur. Great Berry for those of you that don't know Great Berry, is an amazing little Cafe with Superfoods! I used to get my immune shots there. They were made with Ginger and Lemons.... these highly concentrated and sharp shots do not only make fresh and lively, but strengthen the immune defense demonstrably and mainly influenza infections. The Great Berry has also Great Bowls and Superfoods. The Cafe Buur has just opened a few Months ago. I have not been there so i can not say if its good or not. I will catch you guys up once i have visited them. Cafe Buur has Detox Water. That also sounds interesting. :) Its still an open Question if were going to Great Berry or Ca...

Tuesday Mornings,  the Weather isn't so great in Cologne, but maybe the sun will come out later on. Oh well.  Back to the story of my life.  So its been One year since i have been living in Germany and all i did was go out partying. I knew this couldn't be my life forever. But what was supposed to come next? Probably the most logical thing for other people, but not for me. All my other friends went to College, found Jobs... did SOMETHING. But I never knew the next Steps. I never knew what I wanted to become. I was 18 years old and I didn't even know how to live on my own. I thought this had to be the first Step. I wish that i chose the College Route.  But I made the decision to move out and be alone in Germany. I had Language Issues, I had laundry Issues, I had Money Issues. I had Issues that i didn't even knew existed as an Issue. SO 18 year old Amina confronted with all Issues an Adult has.  I thought it would be easy, but i can say now ...

So this is my first time writing about my life. Ive been wanting to do this for a long time because I have a lot to talk about. I just thought I would Jump start into writing about something. I am no professional and i am sure people don't even want to read what I am writing :D :D But its just for me. A little bit about myself: I was born in Germany but i grew up in America til I was 18 years old. With 18 I decided to move to Germany all by myself. I wanted to be Grown up and on my own.  Real Story about this: I was running behind a boy I had a crush on in High School. Classy I know.  So there I was in Cologne City Germany. I had no clue what I was doing. Seriously None ! 😆 First I didn't really know where to start. So where does an 18 year old, who is fresh out of the Parents House do in Europe ??  Quick Tip you can drink alcohol when your 18 in Germany.  So yes I went partying ! And i was really good at it. If Partying could be a Job than that would be perfect f...